As many of you know, my world changed forever on the morning of December 9, 2010. I lost the biggest blessing that I was ever able to call my own. I'm learning every day how to move forward with my life, and God's helped me every step of the way.
This blog isn't being written to focus on the negative, although there will undoubtedly be moments of intense sadness. Bear with me in those times. Instead, I wanted to start fresh and celebrate my new way of living.
It seems that God had a fresh start of His own in mind as well. After quite a bit of suspicion, I finally took a test and got the answer I was praying for. TWO BIG FAT POSITIVES! (I realize that the flash makes the lines ever fainter than usual, but trust me.) I was immediately both scared and overjoyed, and I imagine that I'll feel that way for quite some time.
I took the tests on the evening of Wednesday, January 19th - I had been struggling with some morning nausea, bloating, and the night before, I was so tired that I went to bed at 7:30! When I got the first positive, I called Kyle immediately. He knew my suspicions, but I still think he was in shock when I gave him the news. We both agreed that I should take another test before I got too excited, so after evening church, I ran to the store to pick up another one. When I got home, I anxiously watched as another blue line started for take shape. It seemed so unreal, but after confirming the results with Kyle, the excitement came again. I called some of my dearest friends and family and spread the news. I think I was on the phone until almost midnight. Everyone was shocked, excited, and a little nervous, which I expected....but the conscensus was the same - this baby would be cherished. Nile's death has taught everyone the value of life and of children.
The rollercoaster ride is beginning, and I couldn't be happier at my second chance at life. I pray God's blessings on this pregnancy.
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